I constantly struggle with the concept of enlightenment and the concept of "finding" it. One of the biggest roadblocks for me in a group of spiritual types is seeing everyone else as more enlightened than myself. It's especially vivid with zen buddhism where people work with koans. I can feel the whoosh as it all flies above my head.
On the other hand, sometimes I get into modes where I've been doing a lot of meditating and feeling myself becoming more grounded, and then it feels as though the entire rest of the world is so messed up emotionally.
I wonder if this means I'm normal?
